Go on Living

Lord, I can’t believe he’s gone on to be with You. What do I do now?

And the Lord says, “Go on living.”

Oh, I know that’s what he would want me to do, but it’s so hard. I miss him so much. How do I deal with this?

And the Lord says, “Go on.”

How do I go on? He is so much of my life. I don’t know how to go on...

And the Lord says, “Look to Me.”

Help me, Lord! I don’t know what to do!

And the Lord says, “I love you and he loves you. Yes, he’s gone from you and is with Me now, however his memory, his life, his victories, yes, even his mistakes are a part of you. You can learn from all of it, and so can others, and you can go on living. Your life is fuller because he was in it. You have more to share because you know him.

Let Me comfort you in this loss, I love you and I will be your Father, now more than ever.”

“I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and let your heart take courage; yes, wait for the LORD.” Psalm 27:13-14

Meditation on Easter Eve

Tonight, which commemorates all nights, but of all nights, the one.

He died three days ago and even though I know the end of the story, I still need to realize that, indeed, He died.

Unpleasant, difficult, nasty, horrifying death,

and yet, to buy life,

for me.

Me, unworthy, broken, flawed me – now there’s a thought worth pondering.

So in the darkness, in this night, I will ponder Him.

my life, His death,

my sin, His overcoming,

my struggles, His resurrection,

my life, His living.

And good thoughts they will indeed be

Until morning light

When we commemorate His rising

For us.

"Why do you seek the living One among the dead? He is not here, but He has risen..." Luke 24:5-6

Sometimes what you need is nothing...

Lord, I have nothing left, no ambition, no strength, no drive. I've lost my desire and my passion. I want to 'do' but the fire to 'do' is gone. I feel so discouraged.

And the Lord says, "I'm listening".

Lord, I know You are listening and I know You hear, but what do I do? I want to serve, I want to go, I want to give, but the drive is just not there any more.

And the Lord says, "I'm listening".

Listening, yes! But answer, please! I have nothing!

And the Lord says, "Sometimes what you need in nothing. You need to realize that I'm not going to give up on you, no matter what you have or don't have. You know how to give and do, now you have to learn how to live, having given all."

"Cease striving and know that I am God." Psalm 46:10